why am I awake right now? I got up at 8:30 for no reason.

I had a dream Chris was trying to make me kill myself. I was going to die anyway but then decided to live as long as I can. My grandmother was creative and I saw her designing with color. Then my mother was very sick and in the hospital. I was trying to go see her but no one would tell me what's going on. I finally found some info and went with my brother to see her but I couldn't get in because Sean wouldn't follow the rules and Erika was socializing in the lobby.